I know You love me I know You found me I know You saved me And Your grace will never fail me And while I’m waiting I’m not waiting I know heaven lives in me
So I will sing like I will there In the fearless light of glory Where the darkness cannot find me And Your face is all I see I will sing like a man With no sickness in my body Like no prison walls can hold me I will sing like I am free
“When I’m feeling like there’s no love coming to me and I have no love to give… When I’m feeling separated from the world and cut off from myself… When I’m feeling annoyed by every little thing because I’m not getting what I want… I’ll remember that there is an infinite amount of love available to me. And I’ll see it in you. I’ll remember that I am complete within myself. So I’ll never have to look to you to complete me. And most of all, I’ll remember that everything I really need I already have, and whatever I don’t have will come to me when I’m ready to receive it.”
— Will and Grace
CURRENTLY BURNING a blend of thyme, frankincense, lavender (augustifolia) and mandarin in this crazy haze bought on by massive forest fires in Indonesia. The oils help purify the air, as well as promote better breathing thanks to their anti-spasmodic (read: super relaxing, airway opening), sedative and anti-depressant properties. Frankincense has been used since Biblical times to maintain a healthy immune system. Aside from being a wonderful anti-aging oil, its decongestant properties mean it’s also helpful in soothing coughs/respiratory infections as it helps expel gross phlegm. Lavender also has wonderful anti-bac properties to naturally keep you and your loved ones healthier, ditto mandarin – another great tonic – which is safe for kids. So the lights are low, the space is cosy and we’re in a cocoon of calm unlike the eerie blanket of smoke outside. It’s always in times like these my heart goes out to people whose livelihoods mean they need to be exposed to the haze.
BEEN FEELING a little low lately, the late nights and horrible pollution certainly don’t help lighten the mood. I caught a podcast while I was working today, where the speaker suggested that it was not in nature’s way to see what you’ve planted in the same season. Putting a seed in the ground doesn’t mean you’re going to see a great harvest the next day. This ain’t no beanstalk. Things worth having take time. What you do now prepares you for the next phase, and you’ll reap in this season what you planted previously. Just because nothing happens overnight doesn’t mean it won’t happen, he suggested (how very Pantene Pro-V circa the ’90s). Delays are not always denials. It got me thinking about foundations, and why the now really counts.
SO I STOOD in the kitchen reheating leftover pumpkin risotto (it had pine nuts, spinach, parmesan – the works) from the other night. And I listed aloud all the things I was grateful for. Point by point. The great and the insignificant. While it felt a little forced at first, but that’s just it. Sometimes, to get out of a rut, you just have to push yourself. Eye-rolls and everything. So I rattled them off, despite being alone. Did it help? Perhaps being mindfully grateful is like taking vitamins. They’re better with daily, long-term use. What are you thankful for?