“Sometimes the greatest miracle is being able to face exactly where you are and say: This is where I am, no running, no hiding. There’s gold for me here, and I intend to find it, no matter what.”
“Choose one thing and become a master of it. Choose a second thing and become a master of that. When you become a master of two worlds, say, engineering and business, you can bring them together in a way that will a) introduce hot ideas to each other, so they can have idea sex and make idea babies that no one has seen before and b) create a competitive advantage because you can move between worlds, speak both languages, connect the tribes, mash the elements to spark fresh creative insight until you wake up with the epiphany that changes your life.” – Justine Musk
This one’s for the moments where you’re just awash with fear and are overcome with, “The fuck am I doing with my life?”
Dreams are cheap and easy. They come hot and fast. As any entrepreneur or craftsman will tell you, there are dreamers and then there are doers. The magic and ensuing madness lie in the execution. Sometimes the energy required to launch or re-launch— to get up when you’re down, to rise out of bed every morning—can be a challenge. And yet, you have to.
You must do the things you cannot do.
It can be demoralising and frustrating: to have a dream in your heart and want to be at Z when you’re stuck at B or probably worse, X. I used to tell the interns that there’s no such thing as microwaved success. You just have to do the work yourself.
The best example I can give of this is every time I work out. I have on occasion, ended my walks literally the minute (sometimes second) after my goal, for example 30:01.
Like, that’s it. Done with this shit. DONE. I can’t take a second more.
That’s all I have in me for the day. So I watch the green ring on my Apple Watch light up and get grateful for the moment, and thank my body for hanging in there. Sometimes that one second is about grace. Good for you for having shown up at all.
And if you’re in a dark night right now, good for you for being brave with what’s making you feel stretched and uncomfortable. Good for you for even having the guts to step into the arena. But back to that one second…
Perhaps the real breakthroughs come when you hang on just for another second more. Just one more minute, just one more day. Hang on.
Let’s have a glass half-full moment and choose a kinder, better thought.
What if you’re still in the thick of your lesson because you haven’t yet mastered what you need to know? What if this isn’t all for nothing.
Maybe one day you’ll be able to connect all the lessons you’ve learned on your journey and they light up your darkest nights like constellations, guiding you to your truest north.
Till then, do yourself a favour and choose better, kinder thoughts and, in the words of Wilson Phillips, hold on for one more day.
“If you believe the thing you make is really good, and really works, and if you believe this thing can help people, make their lives better, and give the planet a bit more positivity and peace, and you are NOT doing everything possible to tell people about it, that’s not just ‘bad marketing’ and that’s not just you ‘playing small’.On some level, you not sharing your gift, well, that’s immoral.” – Long Distance Love Bombs
Image by Georges Antoni and Windy Aulia for Harper’s BAZAAR Singapore
Resolutions. Who needs them, am I right? Here are some agreements with the self that I’ll be taking into the new year.
I am disciplined & honour my time. As time is my only non-renewable resource, I know what is worth my time, and hold myself accountable to deadlines. I only participate in events & projects that are worthy of my time & energy.
I listen to my intuition & say yes only to situations which make me feel energetically strong, positive, supported, empowered, challenged & appreciated. I say yes to reciprocal work partnerships that value my time, effort, passion, & creative expertise.
I will not punish myself for having a low-energy day but I will use this quiet time to be still, honour my body & balance by eating the right foods in moderation.
I am strong & tough. I move & keep fit because I love my body. I will close my exercise ring & move a minimum of 30 minutes a day. I am mindful that exercise has multiple benefits on my mind, body, self-esteem & spirit.
I process ideas & concepts clearly & with ease. I am mindful that keeping a tidy & organised space helps me to focus my time & energy of what’s important.
I advance my business every day. I make steps big & small to take my business to the next level.
I am present.
I am truly authentic & honest in the way I feel, but I also know that I can choose how I feel at any moment. I reset without judgment should I feel the need to realign, using yoga, aromatherapy, movement, prayer & meditation as tools to help me rebalance.
I am secure in myself & what I bring to the table. Only I decide that I’m worthy to be in the room. I know only God gives true promotion & so I relax, let God fight my battles & stay in my flow.
I move confidently & authentically in my own path. The only perfect time & path is the one I’m on now. Everything is unfolding as it should.
I understand the difference between self-care & self-indulgence.
What beliefs are you releasing, and what are some new intentions you’ll be setting for the new year? x Alli
“New York is just 3 hours ahead of California, but that doesn’t make California slow. Someone graduated at the age of 22, but waited 5 years before securing a good job. Someone became a CEO at 25, and died at 50. While another became a CEO at 50, and lived to 90 years. Someone is still single, while someone else got married. Obama retired at 55 and Trump started at 70. Everyone in this world works based on their time zone. People around you might seem to be ahead of you. But everyone is running their own race, in their own time. Do not envy them and do not mock them. They are in their time zone, and you are in yours. Life is about waiting for the right moment to act. So, relax. You are not late. You’re not early. You are very much on time.”
– I wish I knew who wrote this!
Goals are great. We need to be constantly stretched in order to grow. And change, as I learn almost every season, is not always a bad thing.
But we put so much pressure on ourselves for things to happen now. Microwaved happiness, microwaved connections, microwaved success or healing even.
Hardly anything is that tenuous slow-burn anymore.
I for one, can get so either mired in the past and what I would change, or live so far off in the future its borderline La La Land… which is the thing psychiatrists and life coaches tell you not to do if you want anxiety attacks and the feeling of being overwhelmed all the time.
It also doesn’t help when others conveniently assume that you’re on society’s great unwritten timetable. You’re in your teens and it’s, What are you going to do after high school? In your 20s it’s, What are you going to do after graduation? Have you gotten that dream job yet?
In your 30s, it’s When are you getting married? When are you having kids? Where is your career going? How much are you saving? When’s the investment property happening? questions.
And then finally one day, you’re standing in your kitchen, interrogated (ok–in a friendly, motherly way) by your dear cleaning lady whom you consider family, justifying why you want to leave your corporate job and why you don’t necessarily want kids. And to Please. Stop. Asking.
My point is to not let yourself be rushed by others. And worse still, to not feel like you’re wrong or weird if you don’t want any of the things that you’re ‘meant’ to have. If you don’t want kids at all, that’s cool. If you want to focus solely on your career, you do you. And it’s ok to change your mind in between. Nobody has to tell men these things.
Side note on mothers: I look at mums with a mixture of worship and amazement at how they beautifully, imperfectly, fervently live their lives. Mothers of all ages and life stages inspire me daily. They’ll tell you it takes a village and indeed, some are a little more fortunate than others in terms of support. But that doesn’t diminish my awe for them (and how intimidated I’d be in their shoes).
This whole timing thing applies to the idea of success and ‘making it’ too. Who wouldn’t want to be an overnight success.
It can be so tempting as an [insert your job here] to look at your peers and feel like you’re lagging behind. Like, Why hasn’t my business taken off yet? Why was I overlooked for that promotion? Why is my art not as impactful or recognised as XYZ’s yet?
Sadly I don’t have answers for you. But I do have a theory that hustle and heart will set you apart. I tell myself on less than Instagram-worthy days to work hard, have faith, keep swimming in your own lane without feeling like you need to pop your head up out of the water to check where the competition are. Something good is coming around the corner. (And P.S. the grass is not greener. They used a filter, as I once read).
But coming back to why we’re here. If you’re waiting for that perfect something to happen to you in order to be happy, feel complete, finally feel fulfilled… you could be waiting a long time.
- Be here now.
- Be here now.
- The past is not where you live.
- The future is going to happen anyway.
- Just enjoy being here, now. This pain, happiness, joy is teaching you something.
Before I start spiralling, I often remind myself to come back to this moment. And tell myself it’ll happen when it happens. And that’s ok.
It can seem laughable in these moments to think of things like beauty or art, or even aromatherapy. But it’s these sensorial elements of what we smell, touch, feel—which help us anchor us back to this moment.
- Do a body scan from top to toe. Observe how you feel in this moment, without judgment.
- Write it down.
- Get still and very quiet. Apply or diffuse your favourite meditative essential oils (we love Recovery Mode – though it may seem dark and low in energy at first whiff thanks to its super calming sandalwood, think of it is a blanket encouraging you to pause. Mmerci Encore’s Nightshade Sleep Mode blend also works like a treat and needn’t only be saved for exclusively sleep. Picking wood-based essential oils is a great and easy way to help calm, restore, and slow down those racing thoughts).
- Put away all devices for at least 16 minutes and just think. Acknowledge that you feel rushed or overwhelmed. Perhaps admit that how you’ve been surviving but not exactly thriving. Then think of what you really want and what truly makes you feel alive. Be still. Rewire those pathways in the brain.